Here Goes Nothing...

It's late and I've had a lot on my mind and it's time for me to come clean...this post is mainly to my family. I've been unemployed since the week of Thanksgiving and have been struggling to find work since then. It's tough to find work here and its been nothing but drama since I've moved up here my first roomate whom I thought was a friend up and left the apartment without paying rent. cant seem to find a decent roomate. I can't find work and I got a ticket for something back in september and turns out my license was suspended (I found that out when I got pulled over for a tail light that went out). Not to mention the car damages first my trunk got smashed which is going to be worked on soon and then I slid on ice and it turns out I ruined a strut...itis safe to say I'm struggling financially, emotionally and spirtually. I'm so sorry you guys had to find out this way, I just couldn't hold it together anymore. You guys mean so much to me words can't even describe it. I didn't tell you guys what was going on because I feel like I always let you down, I feel like a disappointment. I really am trying to stay positive but times are tough right now..I've been receiving help from my bishop here with rent and stuff like that and have been working on going to church regularly but what I really need right now is my family. I hope you guys can forgive me...I love you